I May Never Find (Fan Fiction)

Im a new reader its cool did ze ff is end ? when did u started it

Sat, 20 Oct 2012 19:56:06 -0400

started it about a year ago.

Just read chap 1 dem that was a dream

Sat, 20 Oct 2012 19:55:49 -0400

lol yeah.

i still think u should do a sequel even if u take hella long to update, the waiting is always worth it for ur bomb chapters just my thoughts though.

Mon, 01 Oct 2012 01:00:46 -0400

idk about a sequel, the epilogue will clear a lot of questions up. i dont think the chapters are that good, especially since I be having yall waiting forever and a year for them lol.

Who Plays Madison

Mon, 01 Oct 2012 00:57:16 -0400

you decide.

uh... where is the character list?? ._.

Mon, 01 Oct 2012 00:57:10 -0400

uhhh I never made one, but the chapter list is fab.

Who is the character of Madison ?

Mon, 01 Oct 2012 00:56:36 -0400

umm who would you like to be the character of Madison?

Chapter 50

Tue, 18 Sep 2012 22:23:43 -0400

~Madison:

I stood in the room looking at my face in the mirror. A beautiful off white gown could be seen as a part of my reflection. I looked down at the dresser to see an assortment of sparkling jewelry gleaming back at me. The room was entirely too large to be a last minute room, something Seiko had managed to find somehow.

My head turned to see Kierra and Seiko sliding into their dresses taking about a million pictures of themselves. They were having so much laughing and being stupid they didn’t see me watching them intently.

I was fresh out the shower dressed in nothing but my bra and panties. My chest heaved with anticipation and not nervousness. I couldn’t wait to see Chris at the end of that altar. To see him smiling back at me.

To marry the man of my dreams.

To spend the rest of my life with the man that God created just for me.

I looked back at myself in the mirror. A tear was sparkling in my eyes as I was reminded of all Chris and I had been through to get to this point. Between the lies, deceit, and the confusion of whether or not we were just friends or something more we had always found our way back to one another.

No matter how mad he used to make me, or how much I would hurt him when I would run away from my feelings. Even that psycho bitch Rihanna couldn’t stop this from happening. It took a while but it was fate that Chris and I coming back together and no matter how guilty we both felt, it was fate that got Karrueche taken from us.

Had she still been alive Chris would have never left her. I would have never taken him had she still been alive. I had too much respect for her; I loved that girl like she was my own sister.

I kissed a piece of paper on the dresser where I had cursively written Karrueche’s name. Chris and I had made a pact about our marital ceremony. We both had written letters to Karrueche, Aaron, and even Rihanna. We wanted to apologize for getting them caught up in our inability to recognize our love for one another.

I looked to the side to see Seiko about to fall over trying to put her shoes and necklace on at the same time. Kierra laughed snapping about twenty more pictures as Seiko fell in slow motion.

“Are you going to stand there or are you going to put on that dress?” My eyes met Kierra’s as she pointed to the beautiful creation that she had designed. “I mean Chris has already waited this long for you, you should be moving faster.” She joked then went to finish dressing herself.

Instead of answering I turned my attention back to the mirror. My tear had dried in my eye and I felt sheer anxiousness beginning to take over me. I sat down on one of the plush couches and began to apply a layer of lotion to my body. It was Chris’s favorite Victoria’s Secret fragrance.

“Come on Cinderella” Seiko begged still struggling to get her shoes on in the dress.

Still without saying anything I pulled on my corset already loving the way my body looked in it. My eyes went back to the big dress that was just waiting to entrap my body. The dress that is going to make all the difference in my life.

In that dress I will dedicate all of myself to Chris for the rest of my life.

I can’t wait.

Moving somewhat faster (not really) Seiko and Kierra finally managed to secure me in all of my wedding dressings.

“If I look half as good as you do on my wedding day Tyga will kiss my feet.” Seiko joked while she and Kierra stepped back taking a long look at me.

“She right, shawty you bad.” Kierra chimed in. “I am a genius.” I love how she just had to somehow make that about her.

“Are you guys sure?” I had my back to the mirror afraid to look at myself. My hands smoothed over my dress, my fingers remembering the delicate fabric and designs that were there. I felt like I was in a dream and looking at myself would put me back into reality.

I didn’t want to ruin the moment.

“Why don’t you look for yourself?” My eyes met Bow’s as he stood at the door. His eyes lingered on me for a moment and he smiled. “Cause damn you look good.” I smiled and then just as quickly he was completely concerned with Kierra.

I turned slowly towards the mirror.

My mouth hung open.

My reflection portrayed a seemingly flawless woman dressed for the event of a lifetime.

Her dress long past her feet, hugging her upper body and big and poofy at the bottom: just like a princess. Her hair was curled all around her face and hung down past her shoulders.

Her face lightly painted with thin colors to bring out her eyes and a dark powder to match her complexion. Her earrings were simple studs that were almost hidden in her hair. Her shoes kept her four inches off the ground and most likely still six inches shorter than the man that would meet her at the end of the aisle.

One of her wrists was accented with a diamond bracelet, a gift from the man that in just a few would be her husband for eternity. One of her rings fingers beheld the large engagement ring he had presented her with. Her nails were painted to bring out the small traces of teal that could be found in her dress. Her neck was accompanied by a spilling diamond necklace that made her whole body chill.

And to top it all off there was a tiara on her head. She opted against a veil.

She wanted him to see all of her when she met him at the altar.

I was beautiful. I don’t think I have ever looked as beautiful in my life as I did right now.

“I think I’m going to cry.” I wailed trying to keep the tears at bay as Kierra handed me my bouquet and I was hit with the full effect.

This is it.

Today is the day.

I have never been so happy in my entire life.

“You ready Maddy Mad?” Seiko chuckled bumping me in the arm while picking up her own much smaller bouquet.

“She better be, I bet Chris is about to have a fit.” Kierra whined looking down at her phone probably noticing that we were already late. She needs to understand that I don’t care.

This is my day: I’ll be there when I get there.

“Y’all go ahead; I think I need a minute.” I decided, which was no use because Tyga had come into the room and all of sudden no one else in the room existed to Seiko. Kierra looked back at me and gave me an encouraging smile before closing the door behind them.

I slid down on to the seat that moments earlier Kierra and Seiko were hovering over doing my make-up and taking loose my hair. Now it was just me, left in a room to stare in a mirror.

Every moment of my life with Chris passed through my mind while I dwelled there. I recalled all of our happy and sad times. The times where we pissed each off and the times when we couldn’t keep our hands off of one another. I reminisced one last time on all that we had been through together and how far we had come.

I picked back up my letter to Karrueche. I folded it nicely and kissed it one last time. I thanked her for everything she has given me. I looked at my letter to Aaron and did the same. My eyes lingered on my letter to Rihanna, it was the only combined letter that Chris and I did.

The main reason we did it combined was because the only thing I had to say to her was “thanks for fucking up so I could get my man.” Chris didn’t like that too much. I folded her letter and then set all three letters on top of a candle and watched them crumble in flames.

I wiped off my hands to find that my engagement ring had gotten a little burned during the process and smiled. It was a symbol of all that it took for Chris and I to get to this point.

Once all that was done I felt like I could move again. I stood slowly and gathered everything that I would need back into my hands.

Only to slide back down into the seat.

Something wasn’t feeling right.

Something was missing.

“Girl if you don’t come on, got Chris out there about to sweat a bucket!” I turned and smiled widely. Now I really felt like I could go on. I stood again and captured her in a hug.

Through it all she is the one we really needed to be thanking for Chris and I finally being able to get to this point.

“I’m so glad you’re here!” I cried into her shoulder. She hugged me tightly before pushing me away.

“Mhmm I know you are, that’s why I didn’t get an invite.” I looked down and she grabbed my chin. “I’m just kidding, now smile.” I smiled. “That’s the beautiful smile he wants to see, now come on: I didn’t sit on a plane all day to watch my son have a panic attack at the altar.” I laughed.

“I love you Momma.”

“I love you too baby.”

~Chris:

“Do you Madison take Christopher to love, to hold, and to cherish until death do you part?” My heart stopped beating as I waited for the two words to spill from her mouth. I had already declared my sentiment to her.

I had stopped sweating once she finally appeared looking so damn beautiful that I could barely keep my hands off of her. My heart started beating faster with each step she had taken to get to me. There had been a genuine smile on her face the entire time and I admit that woman, this woman, Madison changed my life.

She is changing my life.

And for that I will always be grateful.

When everyone turned against she was one of the few that stayed. She was there when I had nothing and watched me without jealously as I moved into fame. Her presence at my events and shows made all the difference.

Madison has made the difference in my life that I needed.

She is everything to me.

“Wait.” I breathed and Madison’s head snapped to me in anger.

“Chrissss” She ground out, that tinge of infuriation easily heard in her words.

“Man what you doing?” Tyga called from behind me. Instead of responding I smiled at all of them and got back down on one knee.

“Chris what are you—” I put a finger to my lips hushing her.

“We started out
Saying (saying)
That we would just be friends
But special feelings
Have arisen
What are we suppose to do now
Here in the mean while

I really love the way
You make me feel inside you wonder why my spirit is happy
Cause you came in
And changed the meaning
Of a true friend
And this is just the beginning

You touched my heart
Every part
Whenever you speak to me
I love what we have going on
I may never find another one like you for me”

“Chrisss” She cried, I stood my hand still in hers.

“I wrote that for you, even back then.” She smiled through her tears. “Because it’s true, I’ll never find another you.”

“And I do.” She turned to the preacher her hand squeezing mine.

“Well by the power invested in me, by God, the state of Nevada, I do pronounce you man and wife. Chris you may kiss your bride!” I scooped Madison in my arms and crushed my lips onto hers.

When I finally let her go all I heard were congratulations and Momma came up tears in her eyes. She did the best that she could of clutching me and Madison.

“I’m soo proud of you.” She cried. “Don’t screw this up.” She then hit the both of us upside the head.

“We won’t Momma, we won’t.”

final chapter should be up today and the epilogue tomorrow or Thursday

Tue, 18 Sep 2012 16:19:07 -0400

getting a little emotional while I work on this final chapter.

Sun, 16 Sep 2012 17:00:03 -0400

you know you never created a chapter list?

Sun, 16 Sep 2012 16:59:37 -0400

yes I did!! http://imayneverfindfanfic.tumblr.com/chapters

are you going to make a sequel? i would love to see what happens in chradison and tyga and seiko's lives after the epilogue, what about a character list? im sad this story is almost over.

Sun, 09 Sep 2012 13:51:13 -0400

idk about a sequel (dont think anyone would want to because it takes me forever to update), the epilogue will leave you on a cliff hanger. dont be sad. idk why i never bothered to make a character list lol.

just started the final chapter :')

Sun, 02 Sep 2012 13:51:52 -0400

Omg chapters like that make a nigga love you lol! Chris aggressive sexy ass !! One more chapter :/ I already know ima reread this story do never ever delete it !

Mon, 27 Aug 2012 13:22:04 -0400

lmfaooo i love you too. aww dont be sad: its technically two chapters because there will be an epilogue. i will neber eber delete lmao.

I don't see nothing wrong with a little bump and grind! Lmfao but I am so ready for the next chapter girl.

Mon, 27 Aug 2012 13:15:59 -0400

lmaooo; im going to start it tonight.

Cascade (A Fanfiction): Introduction

Fri, 24 Aug 2012 15:15:25 -0400

Cascade (A Fanfiction): Introduction:

cascadeff:

This is not your average love story.

This isn’t even a love story.

Why? Because:

They all work for her.

*Majesty*

A take no prisons or excuses type of bitch. The kind of bitch that when she approaches a group of people, the people part to make a clean and clear pathway for her.

She…

A Bottle of Love (Fanfiction): My Fanfic Readers

Mon, 20 Aug 2012 00:57:55 -0400

A Bottle of Love (Fanfiction): My Fanfic Readers:

abottleofloveff:

I want to apologize for being so MIA lately. My first week of college was this past week and I start classes in the morning. In an effort to take advantage and truly experience college often when I sat down to write chapters, I then became distracted or met up with friends and such. And y’all know…

hellooooooooooooo ? its been like a month. you there?

Wed, 15 Aug 2012 01:47:02 -0400

i updated though.

zamnnnn. im the only one not getting ze zaddy zick ! lmaooo.

Mon, 13 Aug 2012 18:58:14 -0400

awweeee dont feel bad lol!

Chapter 49

Thu, 09 Aug 2012 23:24:38 -0400

~Madison:

This Escalade might as well been a damn party bus. We were on it acting a damn fool as though it was. Chris got one of his drivers to drive so the six of us could act like fucking idiots in the back.

Chris was lying down with his head in my lap pretending to make farting noises and grossing me out. Seiko and Tyga were all over each other each time conversation died down: as usual. As for Kierra and Bow? They were in the back and I noticed at some point she had ended up in his lap.

“What y’all back ther’ talking bout?” I questioned giving Kierra a look.

“Nothing nigga, mind ya damn business.” Bow joked flicking me off.

“Fuck you too nigga.”

“Nah that’s my job.” Kierra said. I made a gagging sound and all of us erupted into yet another series of laughs. This by far is one of the best nights of my life.

I looked down at Chris to see him smiling back at me. It’s that smile that has made every tumultuous moment of our pasts worth it. Seeing him smile lets me know that everything in my world is okay.

I love him.

I’ve always loved him.

“Madisonnnnn” Tyga dragged.

“You guys coming up for air?” I teased. Seiko blushed and then shrugged her shoulders. No fucks were given.

“Where we even going; it’s dark as fuck outside.”

“To the hotel you idiot.” I swear Tyga, Chris, and Bow are some of the slowest individuals I have ever met in my entire life. Like they are musical geniuses but have no common sense.

It is quite shocking actually.

“Somebody’s got a dick up her ass.” He retorted; Chris popped off my lap.

“But my dick is still in my pants.” We all started laughing again. These are the moments that we all lived for: togetherness and being stupid.

A few hours later the car stopped in front some expense ass hotel Chris booked us from his phone and his driver let us out.

“Check us in, we need over night clothes.” I told Chris latching onto Seiko and Kierra.

See when Chris hollered off that we should elope we left the house at that moment, only stopping to pick up Bow and Kierra from Kierra’s house. I wonder why they didn’t go to Bow’s legendary bachelor pad.

I just answered my own question.

No one had time to pack anything so while the boys went and checked us into the hotel and did whatever them niggas do, we went to the little store in the hotel and bought some sleep clothes and other things we would need for our stay.

We were going shopping tomorrow anyways for Kierra and Seiko’s bridesmaids’ dresses.

Just because me and Chris are eloping does not mean my wedding will be lacking anything. My two best friends will be in my mother fucking wedding. Kierra rushed my dress which is being altered right now so it can be on a flight early tomorrow morning to make it here in time. It’s costing Chris a fortune but I’m worth it.

Because they’re Chris Brown, Tyga, and Bow Wow, they can just pick up tuxedos from anywhere. And because we’re their women we have to go pick them up tomorrow also.

We paid for out items and walked to the elevator having no idea where to go.

“Aye Ki-Ki we need the room numbers.” She nodded and pulled out her phone texting Bow. I hope she doesn’t think I didn’t see that smile that was on her face when she did it.

“Oh Hell Yeah!” She shouted as we stepped into the elevator.

“What?”

“We all in the presidential suite together. You know what that means?” She turned to me with this big ass smile on her face.

“Let’s Turn Up!” Seiko exclaimed pressing our floor number. The three of us danced on each other while in the elevator. We were on one of the upper floors, so it was a good little length of time.

An older white couple gave us the stink face when the elevator opened on their floor for them to get on. They quickly told us how they could just wait on the next elevator. We shrugged our shoulders and continued grinding on each other.

“Bow?” Kierra asked as we stepped through the room door noticing that it was completely dark inside.

“Babe?” Seiko asked as the three of stood in a line staring into the darkness hoping one of them would appear.

“Chrissss!” I ground out when the door suddenly closed behind us. “Mentally prepare yourselves ladies; they are going to—” my sentence was interrupted by the appearance off all three men and the combined sound of me, Kierra, and Seiko’s screams.

“Are you crazy!?!” Kierra shrieked elbowing Bow in his stomach.

“Y’all bout scared the life out of us!” Seiko chimed in while the boys started laughing as though it had been the funniest thing that had ever happened. I just gave Chris this look that shut them all up.

“Awe bae you not mad are you?” Chris asked walking to me with his arms open while one of the boys turned on the light.

“Nope.” I answered dryly then a wicked idea came to mind. “Besides I need your card for tomorrow anyways.” His eyes widened as I held out my hand. He looked at Tyga and Bow who each shrugged their shoulders happy as hell that I wasn’t talking to them.

Chris started to reach into his pocket and just as I was smiling triumphantly me and him were in the elevator.

His breath was hot on my skin making wetness pool into my underwear and making me forget whatever it was I had asked him for. He kissed me soundly starting the elevator to only stop it between floors.

“Chris what are—” he cut me off with another kiss backing me into the elevator wall. Before I could say anything else he had my legs wrapped around his waist and his mouth was buried in my neck.

“Oh Chrisss” I moaned throwing my head back causing my body to rise off the wall come. Chris grunted slamming me back into the wall. He somehow managed to get his hands under my skirt. “Chris what are you doing?” I managed between uneven breaths.

“Shh Madison” he growled and I was charmed by how incredibly sexy he sounded just then. He kept me in the air with one hand while playing with my clit through my panties with the other.

“Chris please!” I begged finding the strength to use my own hands.

My hands found their way to Chris’s chest savoring the feel of his muscles through his shirt. I wanted nothing more than to rip off his shirt, push him to the floor of the elevator, suck and kiss on his tattoos, and bite those perky pink nipples of his.

Unfortunately we were obviously in a hurry. Instead I went down to his pants, finding his belt and unbuckling it.

“What do you think you’re doing?” He questioned, stopping kissing on me and staring at my hands. He didn’t let me answer. He took both my hands in one of his and locked them above my head.

“Chrisss” I moaned again. With his free hand he slipped it in my underwear making me instantly groan in anticipation. His hand felt around for the wetness we both had known was there.

“You’re so fucking wet.” He ground into my ear grinding against me. The moment he did that I about lost all my self control. I whimpered begging him the only way I could to give me his dick. “You want it baby?” He asked finally letting go of my hands go and pulling out my best friend.

I stared at CJ not bothering to answer Chris. My mouth watered.

“Don’t even think about it.” My eyes locked with his. “We don’t have that kind of time.” I pouted and he smiled. Before I could think my hands were back above my head and CJ was poking my slick opening. “You want it baby?” He asked again.

Any idiot would know that I want it.

“I can’t hear you.” He teased and my eyes narrowed.

“Christopher Brown don’t fucking play with me.” I ground out trying to use my legs to push him into me.

“That’s not what I told you to say.” He continued and it pissed me off that he was so in control of himself.

“If. You. Do. Not. Put. Your. Fucking. Dick. In. Me. Right. Now.I am going to whoop your ass.” I spat making yet another smile pull across his face. I wanted to smack him, anything to get his dick inside of me. “Chrissss” I grumbled in frustration and impatience.

“Close enough.” And then He stuck all of him in me.

“OH!” I screamed. He groaned aloud holding himself still for only a few seconds before moving in and out of me. We ground our hips into each other trying to get closer than we already were. The louder I moaned the faster and harder he would go. He was so deep in me that I could feel him in my stomach.

“Fuck Madison.” He growled again making me cum. Him and that growl is going to do definitely do some damage.

A few minutes later Chris came inside me lightly moaning my name the entire time.

When we were finished both of us had this big ass grins on our faces.

Chris fixed his pants and started the elevator back up again. I slid down from the wall pushing my skirt from around my hips giving up on trying getting it unwrinkled. He grabbed my hand as we went back into the hotel room.

“Y’all Nastyyy!” Bow announced the moment Chris and I stepped into the room. I shook my head while we laughed.

“Jealous my nigga?” Chris asked looking at me. I blushed.

“Hell Naw!” he shouted unnecessarily.

“Where’s Seiko?” I asked and Chris gave me a look.

“She and T probably somewhere fucking too. Y’all engaged couples some nasty mother fuckers.” Bow turned up his nose.

“I swear I hate you.” I spat playfully at Bow.

“This feeling is mutualMadison.” He made a face at me and I made one back. It was silent for a few moments while I gathered the bags of nighttime stuff I had bought for me and Chris.

Then an ear piercing moan broke out through the room.

“Oh eww!” I said being rolled into Chris’s arms. “Seiko and Tyga gon’ have to take that shit somewhere else.”

“Which bedroom they in?” Chris asked Bow.

“Thankfully the only one over there.” Bow answered pointing to the door on the left.

“Good.” Chris picked me up and carried me to one of the doors on the right.

“Chrisss” I laughed as he dropped me on the bed.

“Get undressed.” I made a sexy face at him and started taking off my clothes. Soon we were both standing there naked. “I can’t wait to marry you.” He said suddenly before picking me up again and carting me into the bathroom.

“Me neither.” I answered moaning. “But don’t think I forgot about your card.” He laughed into my skin putting us both in the shower.

“I swear I love you.”

“I love you too.”

Tomorrow shall be magical.

{Author’s Note: One More Chapter Left :D}

finally finished packing; about to just write fanfic chapters

Thu, 09 Aug 2012 19:55:28 -0400

motownstopher:

those reading http://imayneverfindfanfic.tumblr.com you have my attention first.